Hopefully the last work-related blog post for a while! A quick update on my improved mindset towards my job. In a nutshell, I manned up a bit.
It took a while and there was some distinct lack of man-uppiness in between. In the course of the last week; I've had my first row, I've cried in the staff room, I've cried on the Head, I've attempted resignation and I've sworn quite a lot. Well done me. (What. A. Knob.)
Surprisingly all this has resulted in me getting quite a few more friends! I'm aware that this could possibly be that people are just wanting to see what happens next to the car crash... When I was mid-about-to-resign state on Wednesday, I sobbed on the Head of Music that I was just going to be remembered as that Head of Drama that cried a lot then left.
The hilarious thing is, that when I went for my meeting with the Head, unable to decide if I was about to be fired or was going to resign; I came out 15 minutes later completely at peace with the world and then couldn't quite understand why everyone was still 'fussing' over me. 'I'm fine now', I cheerfully told everyone. People in general were looking a little bit puzzled. I keep forgetting that this group of staff don't know me. The fluctuating tide of emotion is yet to become normal to them and from the outside it could well be misinterpreted as fair to middling psychosis.
I'm making it sound as if the entire staff knew I was a complete cock. I don't think they did, but it is not the largest staff body around and so I'm guessing that a fair few of them are privvy to the fact. I heard by default today that there is apparently an email that goes around on a Friday about going to the pub. 'Why didn't they email it to me?' I lamented at my poor dear husband as I frogmarched him to the pub instead after work. 'Erm, probably because you keep crying and they'd rather go out with cheerful people?' Yikes. Alright Stu. Hearing you loud and clear there.
Roll on next week. Even more than that; roll on the summer hols - four weeks to go!
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